We are at the end of April, I can point to no one thing and say Hey! I did that! Outside of cooking and cleaning and listening to my husband bitch about his job... oh the bitching.
Please explain to me how I am supposed to react, when I make him lunch, put it wrapped to keep warm, I get pissed off face, his pen tossed down, then a muttered, thank you. WTF? I get that you are unhappy - I get that you are overworked, I get that your boss thinks you have an attitude... (no comment) but once again. I am not the figurative punching bag for all that is wrong in your world.
I am really struggling this week, work is slow, I don't want to do training for the sake for training, but there are things I need to learn. I found a list of motivating actions and I think that will be the next project. I have some ideas but frankly I am terrified to try and set them out before tech managers. We'll see if I can come up with a full road map with milestones and actionable data I think that might just give me the guts to put things out there and try.
I need to keep this job - especially if home boy is going to be unemployed this summer. And don't get me wrong - break yeah great go for it. Now he says I don't want to be this person anymore. OK great what do you want? He doesn't know and of course he's got no time to deal with it. I promise you he'll last 1 week, maybe even into two with no job - and YES I will leave his butt honey-do lists. Oh he may not want to unload a dishwasher or run the sweeper - but he's going to learn. Earn your keep buddy boy.
I as I write this April 2020 -- he will be back to doing numbers sometime into 2021 - because I know he's got no patience for retail or dealing with the general yinzer public. Driver for Amazon - Ok great - no Christmas for you, weekends bu-bye. He'll get into shape. LOL
I don't know - I really don't and I think this is causing me more stress than him. AND I know like I know my name he's going to make me more crazy with spending money. He is a SUPREME pain in the nether regions now, can you imagine what he's going to become when he's not working!!!? I can't even... just can't.
I'm going to bake peanut butter cookies tonight. Because my pants still fit.
I figure we'll be back to work-work in a couple of weeks - please heavens above! Darling husband figures he's got a month left with this job - and frankly I keep telling him to quit today. I've said "I will help you pack up your workstation and send it back." Here you go! But he's thinking he's going to get some "go away package" I think he's living in "fantasy land". I have been wrong before.
I am going to sign off - pretend to be productive for a bit, attend a meeting, and then sign off for my day.... then hump day will be another day.... heaven help us all.
Tuesday, April 28, 2020
Tuesday, April 7, 2020
enough already
I have had enough... home, going no where - shopping with Bob - listening to him complain about his job - and THAT is his one topic of conversation.
No sports, no current events as they are all Virus related... work is quiet for now - my only competition is to see if I can indeed ready 3 books in a week, although the library contest says blog or article as well. Challenge accepted and nearly completed for week 2.
I decided today that I was going to re-read all the JD Robb "In Death" series - I figured I already owned most of them - only to find I don't own #1 in the Series. Go figure. I have also figured out how to download books to my kindle from the library - so Series 1 now in progress. I also took time to look up the titles and their location in the sequence - I now have a spreadsheet with each title and whether or not I own it. Heavens I need something else to do.
I have another book I found that I am 3/4 through, yes, two at once.
I attended a talk today at work, technology issues aside reasonably interesting - I have 3 nerd books to read, granted they are a bit dated but I think they would be interesting and to my tech level these days. We'll add those to the list when I start commuting again.
I noticed yesterday - it was wonderfully warm and sunny, I took the dog for a walk, came home and sat outside, alone. Bubba comes to join me - to complain about his job. That is when it hit me - I don't have those couple of hours alone daily to do what I want when want - he doesn't disappear for a bit during the weekends - he's always HERE! I wanted that small slice of peace and quiet in the sun life was wonderful for that 5 minutes. Then.... bitch and moan about the job.
I have all day up stairs alone but those are 'working' hours.... where I am mostly working. It's not the end of the day, dog walked, I have 60 minutes to just - be. I don't have those any more, maybe that is why I take them in my working afternoons - he's downstairs and I'm up here.... peace.
We take the dog to day care tomorrow - she needs out as much as we do. We actually crated her last week to go shopping, she needs to be in there - practice for lack of a better word.
My nails are officially too long, they are not good for typing, the polish and acrylic is cracking off - I give it another week before I have it all peeled off, my wimpy nails will be left exposed. Probably a good thing - home boy loses his job I won't be able to afford the up sale nails, I'll be lucky to get them done at all, my hair - home boy will have to eat baloney sandwiches before I give up professional hair color. Heaven help me when he's unemployed.... he says he'll take a few weeks off then find something with less stress. LOL
I told him - he liked that new company smell, when he was a bigger fish in a smaller pond, a no stress job involves taking orders for the man or woman in charge and doing things their way. He don't like that much; he may think so but we'll see. I have offered for two weeks to do a minimal update to his linked in page - he'll have to wade through recruiters calling but there are ways to weed those out. We'll see. Let us now pray for patience - mostly mine.
All right I'm going to pretend to be productive for an hour then attend a company all hands which is not going to make me happy - I can feel that coming. Stay tuned for crazy in the house - week 4.
No sports, no current events as they are all Virus related... work is quiet for now - my only competition is to see if I can indeed ready 3 books in a week, although the library contest says blog or article as well. Challenge accepted and nearly completed for week 2.
I decided today that I was going to re-read all the JD Robb "In Death" series - I figured I already owned most of them - only to find I don't own #1 in the Series. Go figure. I have also figured out how to download books to my kindle from the library - so Series 1 now in progress. I also took time to look up the titles and their location in the sequence - I now have a spreadsheet with each title and whether or not I own it. Heavens I need something else to do.
I have another book I found that I am 3/4 through, yes, two at once.
I attended a talk today at work, technology issues aside reasonably interesting - I have 3 nerd books to read, granted they are a bit dated but I think they would be interesting and to my tech level these days. We'll add those to the list when I start commuting again.
I noticed yesterday - it was wonderfully warm and sunny, I took the dog for a walk, came home and sat outside, alone. Bubba comes to join me - to complain about his job. That is when it hit me - I don't have those couple of hours alone daily to do what I want when want - he doesn't disappear for a bit during the weekends - he's always HERE! I wanted that small slice of peace and quiet in the sun life was wonderful for that 5 minutes. Then.... bitch and moan about the job.
I have all day up stairs alone but those are 'working' hours.... where I am mostly working. It's not the end of the day, dog walked, I have 60 minutes to just - be. I don't have those any more, maybe that is why I take them in my working afternoons - he's downstairs and I'm up here.... peace.
We take the dog to day care tomorrow - she needs out as much as we do. We actually crated her last week to go shopping, she needs to be in there - practice for lack of a better word.
My nails are officially too long, they are not good for typing, the polish and acrylic is cracking off - I give it another week before I have it all peeled off, my wimpy nails will be left exposed. Probably a good thing - home boy loses his job I won't be able to afford the up sale nails, I'll be lucky to get them done at all, my hair - home boy will have to eat baloney sandwiches before I give up professional hair color. Heaven help me when he's unemployed.... he says he'll take a few weeks off then find something with less stress. LOL
I told him - he liked that new company smell, when he was a bigger fish in a smaller pond, a no stress job involves taking orders for the man or woman in charge and doing things their way. He don't like that much; he may think so but we'll see. I have offered for two weeks to do a minimal update to his linked in page - he'll have to wade through recruiters calling but there are ways to weed those out. We'll see. Let us now pray for patience - mostly mine.
All right I'm going to pretend to be productive for an hour then attend a company all hands which is not going to make me happy - I can feel that coming. Stay tuned for crazy in the house - week 4.
Friday, April 3, 2020
Welcome to staying at home... week 3 and counting.
My last post in February I was working from home, by choice, something I found myself doing about once a month for general errands, dog and Aunt Ing happiness..
Then the Kung Fu Flu has flown across the country and we are ALL working at home and the dog is as content as one met can get.
I started this blog today with the thought of how truly fortunate I am - we are still both working, able to do so from home, we have all the creature comforts one could ask for, and yet - the world is on pause because China sent the flu from hell across the globe.
There have been lots of pictures of very popular places at high noon that are empty, there have been pictures from Venice Italy were dolphins are back in the canals because the people aren't there. Nature is nothing but amazingly adaptable.
I don't have a great deal of actual work to finish, but I have managed to fill days - mostly with work related actions. I have been home since mid-March, darling husband is now in week 2. We are managing - 2 floors and all day away is good. We do lunch together.
What has me worried is his job situation - he is not getting on with this big boss - a man who recruited him, along with his friend - who up and quit a while ago. So today - we have a meeting - heaven only knows what is coming out of this -- we both think it will be given his walking papers. Heaven help us - Bubba with time on his hands. I should probably start a honey-do list now and have a backlog ready to go when we are released from State wide House arrest. Found out his boss cancelled the meeting - again, and apparently for the foreseeable future - the company is in the middle of some big merger/buy out something - who listens? ANY way - I'm sure Boss 'D Bubba gets that he will have to do a great deal more work if he kicks Bubba to the curb so he's postponing the said kicking. Probably hoping that Bubba will find his own exit. We will work that this week, I told him he could passively look, be very selective in what he is looking for, when he talks to a recruiter tell him/her exactly what you are looking for. He doesn't want to be a CPA anymore. Great, super. Heaven help me.
My standard answer when all this comes to pass is - I am the bread winner - you get the do all the extras that I did for 30 plus years, here is a list of birthdays, dates, suggested gifts/ cards. Here is the grocery list, decide what you want for dinner, and your honey do list for the week. I could have a lot of fun with this - Bubba won't be happy. I may start a family over/under pool how long he lasts - I give 4 weeks, one month max. I bet everyone else will think he cracks before then... place your bets boys and girls.
All right - I do have to accomplish something today besides figuring out how to download a book to my kindle from the library. I do have another 2 weeks of swag to win, and now I'm reading two books at once, I find I can't read mystery books before I go to bed, either I am chasing or being chases, I need mindless heaving bosoms before I fall asleep - my brain is dead.
Stay well my friends and love your four legged family members.
Then the Kung Fu Flu has flown across the country and we are ALL working at home and the dog is as content as one met can get.
I started this blog today with the thought of how truly fortunate I am - we are still both working, able to do so from home, we have all the creature comforts one could ask for, and yet - the world is on pause because China sent the flu from hell across the globe.
There have been lots of pictures of very popular places at high noon that are empty, there have been pictures from Venice Italy were dolphins are back in the canals because the people aren't there. Nature is nothing but amazingly adaptable.
I don't have a great deal of actual work to finish, but I have managed to fill days - mostly with work related actions. I have been home since mid-March, darling husband is now in week 2. We are managing - 2 floors and all day away is good. We do lunch together.
What has me worried is his job situation - he is not getting on with this big boss - a man who recruited him, along with his friend - who up and quit a while ago. So today - we have a meeting - heaven only knows what is coming out of this -- we both think it will be given his walking papers. Heaven help us - Bubba with time on his hands. I should probably start a honey-do list now and have a backlog ready to go when we are released from State wide House arrest. Found out his boss cancelled the meeting - again, and apparently for the foreseeable future - the company is in the middle of some big merger/buy out something - who listens? ANY way - I'm sure Boss 'D Bubba gets that he will have to do a great deal more work if he kicks Bubba to the curb so he's postponing the said kicking. Probably hoping that Bubba will find his own exit. We will work that this week, I told him he could passively look, be very selective in what he is looking for, when he talks to a recruiter tell him/her exactly what you are looking for. He doesn't want to be a CPA anymore. Great, super. Heaven help me.
My standard answer when all this comes to pass is - I am the bread winner - you get the do all the extras that I did for 30 plus years, here is a list of birthdays, dates, suggested gifts/ cards. Here is the grocery list, decide what you want for dinner, and your honey do list for the week. I could have a lot of fun with this - Bubba won't be happy. I may start a family over/under pool how long he lasts - I give 4 weeks, one month max. I bet everyone else will think he cracks before then... place your bets boys and girls.
All right - I do have to accomplish something today besides figuring out how to download a book to my kindle from the library. I do have another 2 weeks of swag to win, and now I'm reading two books at once, I find I can't read mystery books before I go to bed, either I am chasing or being chases, I need mindless heaving bosoms before I fall asleep - my brain is dead.
Stay well my friends and love your four legged family members.
Thursday, February 20, 2020
The Monthly Ritual...
In our house there is a monthly ritual, is it fun, life affirming and filled with joy? Of course not - we're talking Bubba here - he has no clue how those works work.
Oh no our monthly ritual involves the credit card bill, now most months I deal with it and move on... this month I was more annoyed than anything because my charges were 9/10's grocery/ Wal-mart, oh an one pair of shoes for my trip to TX last month.
So that's 60 dollars in "fun" spending the rest was on groceries, household items, you know those exciting purchases like paper towels, things to feed Bubba. These purchases also involve making a list for said items, shopping for said items, bringing them home, putting them away, then taking them out and preparing said food, clean up and storage.... Whew doggie am I living the high life - especially if you ask my darling husband.
Is there another person on the planet who complains about this?? No we are very fortunate that we don't have to watch every penny, and I'm not shopping at Fresh Market or Whole foods every week, I am at Wal-Mart; Aldi's and when needed Shop and Save and that's the pricey store!
Now I will say last month I did go to the super expensive store but we were having company, and they had steaks on sale. So dinner for 3 cost us $135 bucks, but that also included Bubba's expensive seasonal oranges, some pricey apples, an already made cake, steaks (enough for two dinners) and a few extras, still cheaper than going out for a steak dinner right?
We won't mention the work done by yours truly for said dinner, cooking clean up etc... remember I am living the high life!
Today I am enjoying the high life working from home, I needed a break, and I can take it, and plus side I get to be home with the Pup. Another one who lives a rough life.
She's been trying to break out of her crate and her face is paying the price, she's got scratches and boo-boo's all over her face. The other reason I think I decided to stay home today as well.
All right I have to do something constructive with my day for work instead of just a load of laundry.
Which very much may turn out to be the most productive thing I do today... as long I don't put anything on the credit card we're all good with Bubba.
Oh no our monthly ritual involves the credit card bill, now most months I deal with it and move on... this month I was more annoyed than anything because my charges were 9/10's grocery/ Wal-mart, oh an one pair of shoes for my trip to TX last month.
So that's 60 dollars in "fun" spending the rest was on groceries, household items, you know those exciting purchases like paper towels, things to feed Bubba. These purchases also involve making a list for said items, shopping for said items, bringing them home, putting them away, then taking them out and preparing said food, clean up and storage.... Whew doggie am I living the high life - especially if you ask my darling husband.
Is there another person on the planet who complains about this?? No we are very fortunate that we don't have to watch every penny, and I'm not shopping at Fresh Market or Whole foods every week, I am at Wal-Mart; Aldi's and when needed Shop and Save and that's the pricey store!
Now I will say last month I did go to the super expensive store but we were having company, and they had steaks on sale. So dinner for 3 cost us $135 bucks, but that also included Bubba's expensive seasonal oranges, some pricey apples, an already made cake, steaks (enough for two dinners) and a few extras, still cheaper than going out for a steak dinner right?
We won't mention the work done by yours truly for said dinner, cooking clean up etc... remember I am living the high life!
Today I am enjoying the high life working from home, I needed a break, and I can take it, and plus side I get to be home with the Pup. Another one who lives a rough life.
She's been trying to break out of her crate and her face is paying the price, she's got scratches and boo-boo's all over her face. The other reason I think I decided to stay home today as well.
All right I have to do something constructive with my day for work instead of just a load of laundry.
Which very much may turn out to be the most productive thing I do today... as long I don't put anything on the credit card we're all good with Bubba.
Monday, February 10, 2020
Welcome to February... whoosh
I posted in mid-January about how things were quiet. Once again I am at Karma's drunken mercy. I got to travel for work, very nice, to a warm part of the world, enjoyed a few days of work and off time in the sun and 65 degree temperatures...
Then I get home... my technical manager has learned my name - and that I am a reasonably confident person - when I don't lose my phone in my own bag and embarrass myself upon arrival....
He has been sending me a ton of stuff... and its been good! Busy is good. Not getting it all together correctly - frustrating. Baby steps and keeping my head are my watch words. I am trying to keep things together and looking good (numbers wise) for the all hands next week. Tomorrow is a full push of all the charts needed, and getting the other monthly reports out.
Pray for me.
I am working to change the terrified mind set that occurs every time this manager steps into my circle of crazy. Fun no? No.
I have a bit of a rant today outside of work, my brother's girls are super involved with musical theater. Now the elder of the two gets bigger parts than the younger... I did see the green monster last night. I'm not sure what I can do. Mama is a big theater mom - you can see it - my brother is dragged along to work the lights... I'm sure it keeps him out of trouble especially with his wife. So then you take this all day - then bundle them up and drive to downtown for another play - which frankly I thought was a bit mature for those girls - but hey I am not their mother.
Of course I had to couch my face with my sister-in-laws family. I can't say I enjoy them - at all. At least with other in-laws in this family there is some tornado-took-my- train wreck kind of enjoyment to be had. Because I'm an awful person. I fear there will come a day when my face and my mouth get the better of me- especially with her sister.
In other news Dog broke out of the steel cage today - she started this weekend to chew/ bend the bars on the top of the crate. She broke one Sunday - and two today - and out she got. Husband darling isn't going to like it - but we have to tucker her little white fanny out before we lock her up AND not let her sleep in the evenings. Tired and doped dogs do not have the energy to bend steel bars.
I hope.
All right signing off for today. I have a feeling this is going to be a week.
Then I get home... my technical manager has learned my name - and that I am a reasonably confident person - when I don't lose my phone in my own bag and embarrass myself upon arrival....
He has been sending me a ton of stuff... and its been good! Busy is good. Not getting it all together correctly - frustrating. Baby steps and keeping my head are my watch words. I am trying to keep things together and looking good (numbers wise) for the all hands next week. Tomorrow is a full push of all the charts needed, and getting the other monthly reports out.
Pray for me.
I am working to change the terrified mind set that occurs every time this manager steps into my circle of crazy. Fun no? No.
I have a bit of a rant today outside of work, my brother's girls are super involved with musical theater. Now the elder of the two gets bigger parts than the younger... I did see the green monster last night. I'm not sure what I can do. Mama is a big theater mom - you can see it - my brother is dragged along to work the lights... I'm sure it keeps him out of trouble especially with his wife. So then you take this all day - then bundle them up and drive to downtown for another play - which frankly I thought was a bit mature for those girls - but hey I am not their mother.
Of course I had to couch my face with my sister-in-laws family. I can't say I enjoy them - at all. At least with other in-laws in this family there is some tornado-took-my- train wreck kind of enjoyment to be had. Because I'm an awful person. I fear there will come a day when my face and my mouth get the better of me- especially with her sister.
In other news Dog broke out of the steel cage today - she started this weekend to chew/ bend the bars on the top of the crate. She broke one Sunday - and two today - and out she got. Husband darling isn't going to like it - but we have to tucker her little white fanny out before we lock her up AND not let her sleep in the evenings. Tired and doped dogs do not have the energy to bend steel bars.
I hope.
All right signing off for today. I have a feeling this is going to be a week.
Thursday, January 16, 2020
Finding your place in the world...
Today is Thursday, as I previously wrote it's been a quiet week, quiet year thus far, and it many ways quiet is good. Quiet is not good when its at work for 8 hours a day and you have about 45 minutes worth of true deadline related stuff to do... the other 7 hours and 15 minutes are -- quiet.
So, I'm going to kill some time, go to the library return some books, maybe get another one, and wonder why I can't find my niche. Or maybe I'll try and find the movie set close by and see if I can't meet AquaMan... hubba hubba.
Update later
Back - cold outside, got lunch, coffee, new library book, saw lots of movie stuff... but it appears as if no one is actually working on said movie - it was cold, I kept moving.
Did I mention it was chilly?
It was a nice way to waste an hour away from my desk; our computer system has been acting funny lately in the fact that they found a problem, fixed it and created bigger issues. Isn't technology fun??
I have had lunch, a cookie and an apple along with coffee. Life right now is good. And reasonably warm, the computers aren't sitting and looking at you like - sure go ahead try and do something. They are actually permitting progress (or blogging as the case may be).
I am off to do something productive - stop laughing! Really. And then home, and things equally productive, like dog walking and running the dish washer. I'll be exhausted after that and will have to nap... ;-)
Short one today. Stay warm
So, I'm going to kill some time, go to the library return some books, maybe get another one, and wonder why I can't find my niche. Or maybe I'll try and find the movie set close by and see if I can't meet AquaMan... hubba hubba.
Update later
Back - cold outside, got lunch, coffee, new library book, saw lots of movie stuff... but it appears as if no one is actually working on said movie - it was cold, I kept moving.
Did I mention it was chilly?
It was a nice way to waste an hour away from my desk; our computer system has been acting funny lately in the fact that they found a problem, fixed it and created bigger issues. Isn't technology fun??
I have had lunch, a cookie and an apple along with coffee. Life right now is good. And reasonably warm, the computers aren't sitting and looking at you like - sure go ahead try and do something. They are actually permitting progress (or blogging as the case may be).
I am off to do something productive - stop laughing! Really. And then home, and things equally productive, like dog walking and running the dish washer. I'll be exhausted after that and will have to nap... ;-)
Short one today. Stay warm
Wednesday, January 15, 2020
Happy New Year - 15 days in
Sue me, we hit Christmas at full throttle, and I didn't anything to slow things down until we hit January then the breaks hit and I've been coasting ever since.
Work is - quiet.
Home is quiet.
Life is quiet.
This is good right? Right? Yeah - quiet is indeed a good thing, however, when I do have something to do it lingers because - quiet and not force to get things done. We are booking up February so that is fun.. Bubba will complain.
We are booking up this coming weekend, because it's Bubba's birthday - dinner with parental units (separate dinners) then movie with his beloved wifey.
I need to get busy at work or I am going to start going nuts. I am working on this. I will be one whole year that I will have been here at the end of February! I know nuts isn't it. It went by so very quickly.
But as I said probably just a year ago I was looking forward to the rut - a rut is a happy place and things will proceed from there. I am in the rut - and things are good. Now we need to find something else to do, because I will be nuts within a month without something else to occupy my time.
Oh I have things to do - doesn't mean I want to do them all. Paying bills, sorting pictures - cleaning out the basement of stuff - which I promise you will be things I will leave in a pile for months that will require Bubba's input - hence the months until stuff gets moved.
I think I need to kick myself in the rear and get motivated - problem is I sit down post dog walk and that boys and girls is all she wrote. Lazy kicks in and it stays to visit. I am going to Eastern Star meeting tonight - hopefully we can kick start some involvement there.
I signed up to be a member of the local garden, flower conservancy up the road from work, Mom and I had a good time at Christmas so we'll go again. I'll take a random Monday off and we'll go and enjoy for the rest of the year and it's all paid for! done!
All is quiet - I will deal with life in parts and ensure things get done. Including my nails, the bills and life's other necessities... dinner with the in-laws this week. Hopefully we'll get some good gossip.
Work is - quiet.
Home is quiet.
Life is quiet.
This is good right? Right? Yeah - quiet is indeed a good thing, however, when I do have something to do it lingers because - quiet and not force to get things done. We are booking up February so that is fun.. Bubba will complain.
We are booking up this coming weekend, because it's Bubba's birthday - dinner with parental units (separate dinners) then movie with his beloved wifey.
I need to get busy at work or I am going to start going nuts. I am working on this. I will be one whole year that I will have been here at the end of February! I know nuts isn't it. It went by so very quickly.
But as I said probably just a year ago I was looking forward to the rut - a rut is a happy place and things will proceed from there. I am in the rut - and things are good. Now we need to find something else to do, because I will be nuts within a month without something else to occupy my time.
Oh I have things to do - doesn't mean I want to do them all. Paying bills, sorting pictures - cleaning out the basement of stuff - which I promise you will be things I will leave in a pile for months that will require Bubba's input - hence the months until stuff gets moved.
I think I need to kick myself in the rear and get motivated - problem is I sit down post dog walk and that boys and girls is all she wrote. Lazy kicks in and it stays to visit. I am going to Eastern Star meeting tonight - hopefully we can kick start some involvement there.
I signed up to be a member of the local garden, flower conservancy up the road from work, Mom and I had a good time at Christmas so we'll go again. I'll take a random Monday off and we'll go and enjoy for the rest of the year and it's all paid for! done!
All is quiet - I will deal with life in parts and ensure things get done. Including my nails, the bills and life's other necessities... dinner with the in-laws this week. Hopefully we'll get some good gossip.
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