Tuesday, April 28, 2020

Enough Already Part 2

We are at the end of April, I can point to no one thing and say Hey! I did that!  Outside of cooking and cleaning and listening to my husband bitch about his job... oh the bitching.

Please explain to me how I am supposed to react, when I make him lunch, put it wrapped to keep warm, I get pissed off face, his pen tossed down, then a muttered, thank you.  WTF?  I get that you are unhappy - I get that you are overworked, I get that your boss thinks you have an attitude... (no comment) but once again.  I am not the figurative punching bag for all that is wrong in your world.

I am really struggling this week, work is slow, I don't want to do training for the sake for training, but there are things I need to learn.  I found a list of motivating actions and I think that will be the next project.  I have some ideas but frankly I am terrified to try and set them out before tech managers.  We'll see if I can come up with a full road map with milestones and actionable data I think that might just give me the guts to put things out there and try. 

I need to keep this job - especially if home boy is going to be unemployed this summer.  And don't get me wrong - break yeah great go for it.  Now he says I don't want to be this person anymore.  OK great  what do you want?  He doesn't know and of course he's got no time to deal with it.  I promise you he'll last 1 week, maybe even into two with no job - and YES I will leave his butt honey-do lists.  Oh he may not want to unload a dishwasher or run the sweeper - but he's going to learn.  Earn your keep buddy boy.
I as I write this April 2020 -- he will be back to doing numbers sometime into 2021 - because I know he's got no patience for retail or dealing with the general yinzer public.  Driver for Amazon - Ok great - no Christmas for you, weekends bu-bye.  He'll get into shape.  LOL

I don't know - I really don't and I think this is causing me more stress than him.  AND I know like I know my name he's going to make me more crazy with spending money.  He is a SUPREME pain in the nether regions now, can you imagine what he's going to become when he's not working!!!?  I can't even... just can't.

I'm going to bake peanut butter cookies tonight.  Because my pants still fit.

I figure we'll be back to work-work in a couple of weeks - please heavens above!  Darling husband figures he's got a month left with this job - and frankly I keep telling him to quit today.  I've said "I will help you pack up your workstation and send it back."  Here you go!  But he's thinking he's going to get some "go away package" I think he's living in "fantasy land".  I have been wrong before.

I am going to sign off - pretend to be productive for a bit, attend a meeting, and then sign off for my day.... then hump day will be another day.... heaven help us all.

Tuesday, April 7, 2020

enough already

I have had enough... home, going no where  - shopping with Bob - listening to him complain about his job - and THAT is his one topic of conversation.

No sports, no current events as they are all Virus related... work is quiet for now - my only competition is to see if I can indeed ready 3 books in a week, although the library contest says blog or article as well.  Challenge accepted and nearly completed for week 2.

I decided today that I was going to re-read all the JD Robb "In Death" series - I figured I already owned most of them - only to find I don't own #1 in the Series.  Go figure.  I have also figured out how to download books to my kindle from the library - so Series 1 now in progress.   I also took time to look up the titles and their location in the sequence - I now have a spreadsheet with each title and whether or not I own it.  Heavens I need something else to do. 

I have another book I found that I am 3/4 through, yes, two at once.

I attended a talk today at work, technology issues aside reasonably interesting - I have 3 nerd books to read, granted they are a bit dated but I think they would be interesting and to my tech level these days. We'll add those to the list when I start commuting again.

I noticed yesterday - it was wonderfully warm and sunny, I took the dog for a walk, came home and sat outside, alone.  Bubba comes to join me - to complain about his job.  That is when it hit me - I don't have those couple of hours alone daily to do what I want when want - he doesn't disappear for a bit during the weekends - he's always HERE!   I wanted that small slice of peace and quiet in the sun life was wonderful for that 5 minutes.  Then.... bitch and moan about the job. 

I have all day up stairs alone  but those are 'working' hours.... where I am mostly working.  It's not the end of the day, dog walked, I have 60 minutes to just - be.  I don't have those any more, maybe that is why I take them in my working afternoons - he's downstairs and I'm up here.... peace.

We take the dog to day care tomorrow - she needs out as much as we do.  We actually crated her last week to go shopping, she needs to be in there - practice for lack of a better word.

My nails are officially too long, they are not good for typing, the polish and acrylic is cracking off - I give it another week before I have it all peeled off, my wimpy nails will be left exposed.  Probably a good thing - home boy loses his job I won't be able to afford the up sale nails, I'll be lucky to get them done at all, my hair - home boy will have to eat baloney sandwiches before I give up professional hair color. Heaven help me when he's unemployed.... he says he'll take a few weeks off then find something with less stress.   LOL

I told him - he liked that new company smell, when he was a bigger fish in a smaller pond, a no stress job involves taking orders for the man or woman in charge and doing things their way.  He don't like that much; he may think so but we'll see.  I have offered for two weeks to do a minimal update to his linked in page - he'll have to wade through recruiters calling but there are ways to weed those out. We'll see.  Let us now pray for patience - mostly mine.

All right I'm going to pretend to be productive for an hour then attend a company all hands which is not going to make me happy - I can feel that coming.  Stay tuned for crazy in the house - week 4.

Friday, April 3, 2020

Welcome to staying at home... week 3 and counting.

My last post in February I was working from home, by choice, something I found myself doing about once a month for general errands, dog and Aunt Ing happiness..

Then the Kung Fu Flu has flown across the country and we are ALL working at home and the dog is as content as one met can get.  

I started this blog today with the thought of how truly fortunate I am - we are still both working, able to do so from home, we have all the creature comforts one could ask for, and yet - the world is on pause because China sent the flu from hell across the globe. 

There have been lots of pictures of very popular places at high noon that are empty, there have been pictures from Venice Italy were dolphins are back in the canals because the people aren't there. Nature is nothing but amazingly adaptable.

I don't have a great deal of actual work to finish, but I have managed to fill days - mostly with work related actions.  I have been home since mid-March, darling husband is now in week 2.  We are managing - 2 floors and all day away is good.  We do lunch together. 

What has me worried is his job situation - he is not getting on with this big boss -  a man who recruited him, along with his friend - who up and quit a while ago.  So today - we have a meeting - heaven only knows what is coming out of this -- we both think it will be given his walking papers.  Heaven help us - Bubba with time on his hands.  I should probably start a honey-do list now and have a backlog ready to go when we are released from State wide House arrest.   Found out his boss cancelled the meeting - again, and apparently for the foreseeable future - the company is in the middle of some big merger/buy out something - who listens? ANY way - I'm sure Boss 'D Bubba gets that he will have to do a great deal more work if he kicks Bubba to the curb so he's postponing the said kicking. Probably hoping that Bubba will find his own exit.  We will work that this week, I told him he could passively look, be very selective in what he is looking for, when he talks to a recruiter tell him/her exactly what you are looking for.  He doesn't want to be a CPA anymore.  Great, super. Heaven help me.

My standard answer when all this comes to pass is - I am the bread winner - you get the do all the extras that I did for 30 plus years, here is a list of birthdays, dates, suggested gifts/ cards.  Here is the grocery list, decide what you want for dinner, and your honey do list for the week. I could have a lot of fun with this - Bubba won't be happy.  I may start a family over/under pool how long he lasts  - I give 4 weeks, one month max.  I bet everyone else will think he cracks before then... place your bets boys and girls.

All right - I do have to accomplish something today besides figuring out how to download a book to my kindle from the library.  I do have another 2 weeks of swag to win, and now I'm reading two books at once, I find I can't read mystery books before I go to bed, either I am chasing or being chases, I need mindless heaving bosoms before I fall asleep - my brain is dead.

Stay well my friends and love your four legged family members.