Just exactly what AM I qualified to do...

I hate looking for a job - even within my network built over too many years to count, with the cool ticket that is hard to get - I got it -- when you move away from the area where said network and cool ticket cred reside... you are --- stuck.

I have skills - granted they aren't the super up-to-the-minute ones... but skills nonetheless..

They aren't buying me anything right now -- I need feedback people!  An acknowledgement that I exist in your vast employment database!!!

Yeah just a bit desperate for human communication these days.

I am trying not to let the details overwhelm me --- they have gotten the better of me lately and I'm battling back the crazy.  We will have to talk to co-workers to see if I'm succeeding.  I fear not.

I am stuck right now -- every time I think I have a plan I think something else is coming from another angle.  I warned Bubba that meltdowns would occur... I just need to have them when he's around... which isn't much.  Bastard.  He is indeed leaving this all up to me.  I cannot do this alone.

Ah screw it -- this is not me!  I HATE the drama the crap and I need to dig out from under.

One day, step, hour, list at the time....

For the record Craig's list is hell, Let go doesn't work and I am daily questioning my fellow human.

Moving on... Bubba called on his way into work, he doesn't get why I would be having meltdowns - "all you have to do is put stuff on Craig's list"... and deal with every other FREAKING detail.

And he's "concerned" about getting the house sold before I have a job... really jackass?  Yes we will have to dip into our savings a bit to cover a couple of months - WHY is he the only one who has such a hard time with this... cheap jackass - that's why.

I am ticking down the list of folks I have told we're moving... there are a handful of folks I need to tell personally... I should start sending out lunch invites.  Won't that be fun?  Actually everyone has been pretty cool about it all, and my big concern with Rainbow is now just another list of things I must do... another list... I need a binder - oh wait I have one...

Oh just shoot me.

Back to my day job - which isn't nearly as much fun this week either... I had budgeting and government accounting is the worst.